Why Is Commitment It So Complicated

Why does life seem so complicated?
Yet, I know it is really very simple.
Inner turmoil, turbulent heart beats,
decisions behind closed doors with mysterious paths.

The answer is within.
But my mind is so confused, the answers seem to make no sense!
You think you are in love, but then you don't know quite what to do?
You want to be loved but yet, you keep running away when love is given to you.

If only I could figure out what I am afraid of.
How can I break out of this circle of heartbreaks and despair?
Which path should I take to get out?
What would I lose if I commit?
Would it really be worth it?

I know I can't go on like this.
I know one day I will have to settle down.
The mode I am in is totally destructive, and something has to give.
Why can't I see how terribly I am treating myself and others?
Maybe I need some time alone.
But when I am alone, I go nuts!
I really can't stand being alone.

Life is so strange.
Although I consider myself a loner,
I seek comfort in the arms of another.
I am contented for a while, then suddenly out of the blue,
someone else pops up and I can't seem to resist.
Then, it is just not the same anymore,
I sense it is time to move on.

So what do I do?
How do I commit?
I guess, I will have to evaluate and make a decision.
Learn to trust that my heart instead of my head can lead the way.
Give someone a chance and have faith that it will be all okay.

Well, today is a new day!
Here I go again!